God Sightings in the Dominican Republic

This is a story of my Dominican Republic Mission Trip.
God brought me to the Dominican Republic four years ago to do medical missions. I am a nurse and this was my fourth trip. These are just my experiences there. And what God did in my life.


Before this trip I just happen to met up with some friends of mine at the used bookstore. I had went there to by some Spanish-English bibles to take down there. When I walked in I ran into a good friend of mine. We got to talking about my upcoming trip to the Dominican. We went to go sit down with some of his friends that were there also. Now God had put it in their hearts to by all the bibles I had wanted to buy. I had five bibles to take that I had found. And they paid for them. It was such a blessing. I never expected for God to put it in their hearts to pay for the bibles. I felt tears well up inside of me. What a blessing. Then one of the ladies that was there wanted to read a poem to me that she had wrote. I don't remember all the words she said but I do remember the last words of the poem. It was "Come follow me, I am yours and you are mine." I felt God at that moment very profoundly. I knew God was telling me to follow Him to the Dominican again. In my heart I had wanted confirmation that I was really suppose to go this time.


When I arrived to the Dominican we were given a devotional to do during the trip. Every time I have been to the Dominican they have given us a devotional and God always seems to have a word for me in there. Well this time is no different. When I opened the the first page of it there were the words "Follow Me and I will make you fish for people!" When I read the words "Follow Me" I knew this was God confirming to me once again that I was suppose to be there. 

The first day there we started off with some devotional time. The lady giving the devotional spoke about how God had used Moses, Elijah and David in the bible. She wondered why God had chosen her to do what she does in the Dominican. A week before this trip I had went to see Joel Osteen. It was called a night of Hope. And in that message Joel talked about how all the great men and women of Faith where in the Grand stands cheering us on. He talked about Moses, Elijah, David and all the cast of characters through the old and new testament. He spoke about why God chose them. It was much the same message I was hearing in that first morning devotional in the Dominican. I think for me it was God confirming that it was Him calling me to the Dominican. 


The next day at breakfast we had a devotional time. One of the Dentist that was with us read us a devotional. One of the scriptures that he talked about was Joshua 24:14-15 ¹⁴ “So fear the Lord and serve him wholeheartedly. Put away forever the idols your ancestors worshiped when they lived beyond the Euphrates River and in Egypt. Serve the Lord alone. ¹⁵ But if you refuse to serve the Lord, then choose today whom you will serve. Would you prefer the gods your ancestors served beyond the Euphrates? Or will it be the gods of the Amorites in whose land you now live? But as for me and my family, we will serve the Lord.” 

When I heard this scripture it really make me think about the things that I worship and put in front of God. And this scripture just also happen to be my reading in my daily bible that week also. So I really felt that God was telling me that there are still things in my life that I worship and put in front of God. And God was letting me know this. I also felt the fear of the Lord when I heard this scripture. There are things of the world that I need to give up. And I felt a sense that God was being serious with me. That this is not a game.

The next day the devotional was about fasting. The scripture that was read was Isaiah 58. It was about what we think fasting is and what God says fasting really is. We think fasting is fasting from food. And fasting from food is good and necessary. But God is saying here that fasting is to let the oppressed go free, to lose the chains of bondage, to feed the hungry and clothe the naked. And this scripture was also in my readings for the week. It seemed all the devotionals we were having were lining up with all my readings in my bible and my magnificent. I felt God really telling me this is what He wants from us. This girl is 22 years old and had some kind of malnutrition disease or something else. Very, very sad. She weighed about 60 or so pounds I am guessing. She said she had accepted Christ two months ago.

¹ “Shout with the voice of a trumpet blast.
      Shout aloud! Don’t be timid.
   Tell my people Israel^[a] of their sins!
    ² Yet they act so pious!
   They come to the Temple every day
      and seem delighted to learn all about me.
   They act like a righteous nation
      that would never abandon the laws of its God.
   They ask me to take action on their behalf,
      pretending they want to be near me.
 ³ ‘We have fasted before you!’ they say.
      ‘Why aren’t you impressed?
   We have been very hard on ourselves,
      and you don’t even notice it!’

   “I will tell you why!” I respond.
      “It’s because you are fasting to please yourselves.
   Even while you fast,
      you keep oppressing your workers.
 ⁴ What good is fasting
      when you keep on fighting and quarreling?
   This kind of fasting
      will never get you anywhere with me.
 ⁵ You humble yourselves
      by going through the motions of penance,
   bowing your heads
      like reeds bending in the wind.
   You dress in burlap
      and cover yourselves with ashes.
   Is this what you call fasting?
      Do you really think this will please the Lord?

 ⁶ “No, this is the kind of fasting I want:
   Free those who are wrongly imprisoned;
      lighten the burden of those who work for you.
   Let the oppressed go free,
      and remove the chains that bind people.
 ⁷ Share your food with the hungry,
      and give shelter to the homeless.
   Give clothes to those who need them,
      and do not hide from relatives who need your help.

 ⁸ “Then your salvation will come like the dawn,
      and your wounds will quickly heal.
   Your godliness will lead you forward,
      and the glory of the Lord will protect you from behind.
 ⁹ Then when you call, the Lord will answer.
      ‘Yes, I am here,’ he will quickly reply.

   “Remove the heavy yoke of oppression.
      Stop pointing your finger and spreading vicious rumors!
 ¹⁰ Feed the hungry,
      and help those in trouble.
   Then your light will shine out from the darkness,
      and the darkness around you will be as bright as noon.
 ¹¹ The Lord will guide you continually,
      giving you water when you are dry
      and restoring your strength.
   You will be like a well-watered garden,
      like an ever-flowing spring.
 ¹² Some of you will rebuild the deserted ruins of your cities.
      Then you will be known as a rebuilder of walls
      and a restorer of homes.

 ¹³ “Keep the Sabbath day holy.
      Don’t pursue your own interests on that day,
   but enjoy the Sabbath
      and speak of it with delight as the Lord’s holy day.
   Honor the Sabbath in everything you do on that day,
      and don’t follow your own desires or talk idly.
 ¹⁴ Then the Lord will be your delight.
      I will give you great honor
   and satisfy you with the inheritance I promised to your ancestor Jacob.
      I, the Lord, have spoken!”

And God had even more to say to me during this first week in the Dominican. He was especially speaking to me in the devotionals that we were having every morning. I have been to the Dominican four times now since 2007. And I have often wondered what it is that God has for me here. One of the other devotionals that was read was about the the Faith chapter in Hebrews 11.   That particular morning I had a cup of coffee. This was before the devotional. On the mug I had picked it said "Oh hello there. My name is Faith. I always try to have a word of encouragement for my friends. My motto is: "I know you can't see it yet, but trust me, everything will turn out just fine. Have a great day."  At that moment I felt God again saying "It's going to be okay. I know you have questions about why I brought you to the Dominican Republic but I can't answer you right now. Just have faith and trust me. Everything will turn out just fine." 
So can God speak to you through a coffee mug? Well, yes He can and He did! I read this saying to everyone there that morning. I think some of them looked at me like God can't speak to you on a coffee mug. But that is how God talks to me  in ways I never expect. Notice the Cross in the picture below. This was taken on one of the roads to one of the poorest communities I had been to. There was not much hope here. And God puts a Cross in my picture on this muddy road in this forgotten community. This is the community where the 22 year girl lives in the picture above that I spoke about. This is how God speaks to me. I felt He was saying "I died for these people! Do you not care? Speak to them, love them, and give them Hope."

I was reading my Magnificant the whole time I was there on my trip. One of the meditations was called "Sent to restore Order" And this meditation so spoke to me. It is because I know in my heart God wants me in the Dominican.
This is what the meditation said:
Sent to Restore Order
Had I come to Russia because I wanted it? No, I came because I was convinced God wanted me there. And my coming, my following of the will of God, had meant sacrifices. It had meant leaving behind my own country, the Jesuits I had known and worked with, my family and friends, and everything that had been familiar to me in the first thirty years of my life. In a word, it had meant breaking with all I had known and done before, in order to adapt myself to an entirely new, strange, difficult, and strenuous life of hardship in which to carry on an apostolate. It is the same sacrifice demanded of and made by so many people: missionaries, servicemen, married couples, young people leaving home for the first time. Such a sacrifice is the first test of any vocation, and calling to follow God's will. "In the head of the book it is written of me,"the prophets had said of Christ,"I come to do your will." That was to be the keynote of his life and of his vocation, and it was only in the light of that faithfulness to the Father's will through sacrifice and pain and suffering that one should hear Christ's words on the cross. "Father, into your hands I commend my spirit."
But why the passion? Why pain and suffering? Is God so vindictive that he must inflict pain and suffering on those who follow him? The answer lies not in God's will but in the world in which we live and try to follow his will. Christ's life and suffering were redemptive; his "apostolate" in the scheme of salvation was to restore the original order and harmony in all creation that had been destroyed  by sin. His perfect obedience to the Father's will redeemed man's first and continuing disobedience to that will. "All creation," said Saint Paul,"groans and labors up till now,"awaiting Christ's redemptive efforts to restore the proper relationship between God an his creation. 
Father Walter J. Ciszek, S.J. 
I just felt God speaking to me in this Priest's word's. It seemed fitting to read these words while on a mission trip. This is the new Chapel that was built in the Haitian Community that we went to. They built it in two and half days. This is a picture with the pastor and his wife and children. I felt we were "restoring order" with the building of the new chapel for this community. I had a dream the night before we came to this community. I dreamed that I had burned my right hand. I had put a ice pack on it that was in the shape of a cross to soothe the the burns. When the Chapel was going up I just felt God saying "this chapel will soothe the wounds of the the people here." It was very hot there in the afternoon. And the only cool place was inside the chapel after the walls and roof went up."

On one Friday we took a trip up a high mountain in the Dominican. There was an orphanage at the top of this mountain that were going to go see. It was the most beautiful mountain I had ever been on. The only thing close to it was the mountains that I had seen in Austria. I had never seen such beautiful foliage before. It seemed the whole mountain was covered in the this bright line green foliage. 

There were beautiful rivers and valley's. And there were small little villages in the valley's. I could not get enough of the beautiful scenery. And everyone on the bus just kept saying "how can you say there is no God when you see this." It was just breath taking! The air was cool and crisp. There was no need for an air conditioner. We actually had our jackets on. Which is unusual in the Dominican. On the way up the mountain I read this devotional from "God Calling" this is a devotional that I have been reading for quite sometime now. The devotional was just perfect while going up this beautiful mountain. This is what it said:


Seek Beauty
Draw beauty from every flower and Joy from the song of the birds, and the colour of the flowers. Drink in the Beauty of air and colour.
 When I wanted to express a beautiful thought , I made a lovely flower. I have told you reflect. When  I want to express to man what I am-What my Father is-I strive to make a very beautiful character. Think of yourselves as My expression of attributes, as a lovely flower is My expression of thought, and you will strive in all, in Spiritual beauty, in Thought-power, in Health, in clothing, to be as fit an expression for Me as you can.
Absorb Beauty. As soon as the beauty of a flower or a tree is impressed upon your soul it leaves an image there which reflects through your actions.

 Remember that no thought of sin and suffering, of the approaching scorn and Crucifixion, ever prevented My seeing the beauty of the flowers.
Look for beauty and joy in the world around. Look at at flower until its beauty becomes part of your very soul. It will be given back to the world again by you in the form of a smile or a loving word or a kind thought or a prayer.

Listen to a bird. Take the song as a message from My Father. Let it sink into your soul. That too will be given back to the world in ways I have said. Laugh more, laugh often. Love more. I am with you. I am your Lord.


I read this devotional to the group while going up the mountain. God always seems to surprise me with the way He will speak to me. He knew that this would be the devotional I would read going up the this mountain. He had it all planned out.


 At the top of the mountain was an orphanage situated in a valley. It was the most beautiful place I had ever seen. We visited with the children at he orphanage. There was also another group there called Kids Alive. And we meet up with them to take a tour of the Orphanage. I just could not believe that there was an orphanage on top of this mountain. One little girl just jumped in my arms as soon as she seen me. Then she proceeded to take off my sunglasses and she put them on upside down. 

The kids were fascinated with our sunglasses. She then led me to her little friends and kept saying Americano, Americano. We ate lunch there with the children. And the Dentist that was with us gave all the children a dental checkup.

There was also a group of Wheaton college people there helping mix cement for a foundation. It was the Wheaton college football team.

It was an awesome experience. And I am very glad I got to go to see this orphanage.  We defiantly had a very clear view of what God was doing here. The bright yellow home is where some of the children live.

When we got back the next morning I read my devotional for the day. And the title of it was called "A clear view" It was on the scripture Matthew 5:8 "Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God."
It was about how Jesus chose a mountainside to teach His followers about the characteristics of a life yielded to God. There He taught them that attitude, not altitude, was the key to having a clear view of the Father. To have a heart that is clean in God's eyes, we need to accept the Father's pardon through Christ His Son. "If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse (purify) us from all unrighteousness." (1 John 1:9)
A mountain top is a great place  to see the stars, but to clearly see God requires a change of heart-David McCasland.

 
So when I read this I was taken back for a moment. God had given my Matthew 5:8 several times in the past. Maybe God was trying to tell me my heart needed some work again. And it did. I felt convicted and repented for the things I had been holding in my heart. God got my attention with this mountain top experience. 
Another experience we had was while we were on our way to a Haitian community. We were going here to put up a chapel and to do medical clinic. On the way there we went though more mountains. And it had just rained and we saw the most beautiful rainbow. It was a double rainbow. We were all trying to  take pictures. So finally they decided to pull over and let us out and take pictures. It was so beautiful. We just had a sense that God was very pleased with what we were about to do in this Haitian community. 

Before the trip I had dream. And in this dream God was also telling me to stay an extra week. I was only suppose to go for one week. But God was directing me to stay two weeks. In the dream I was trying my hardest to get on a flight to the Dominican the week before I was suppose to go. I just knew I had to do whatever it takes to find a flight there. And God was telling me that they were needing nurses in Haiti. And I was confused by this because we where not going to Haiti. But when I found out that we were going to be going to this Haitian community it all made sense. This is where God was talking about needing nurses in Haiti.

The next week there was a few people going back to one of the orphanages we had been to the week before. When I was there the week before one the the ladies that cooked for us said to me "I would like to see you here one more time." I said okay. At that moment I felt that God was speaking to me. I thought he was trying to tell me He wanted me to do one more trip to the Dominican. A few of the people that were going back to this orphanage that had not been there and wanted to see it. I was not supposed to go because I had already been there. But at the last minute they asked me if I would like to go again. They had gotten an extra car and more people could go. At first I said no. I was feeling rushed and I would miss breakfast. So they asked a couple of other people and they said no also. Then I thought well what if it was God telling me go. I thought about what the lady had said to me when I was there the week before. So I went back and told them I would go. I grabbed a pop-tart and my backpack and off I went. 
When we got there one of the ladies with us gave all the children something to color. They were given rainbow's to color. And the message below the rainbow was "Every rainbow is a message from God." When I seen this I thought of the rainbow we seen in the mountains we passed through. I knew this was God talking to me. And this is why I had to go back. I felt that God was saying that  "Every child is a message from God." 

The children were just coloring their rainbows. It was really something to see. 

About an hour after eating there I became very sick. One minute I was fine and the next I broke out in the this awful hot sweat. I felt my stomach cramping and I was very nauseated. I felt like I was going to faint. And we were about to leave. Well I did get very sick. And we were two hours away from were we were staying. The one thing I did not want to happen to me while I was there was to get sick. I had never gotten sick there before but I had seen other people get sick. So I always take antibiotics when I go. But I guess they did not work for whatever this was I had gotten. After about two hours I was feeling a little better. We were suppose to go the beach after we left there. I did feel well enough by then to spend about thirty minutes at the beach. That was after taking some medication. But on the way home I just started to feel worse again. And later that night I became much more sick. I won't go into all the details. 


We were suppose to leave the next morning to fly home. I made the decision to tough it out and fly home sick. I went to the ER went I got home after getting off the plane. It was not a pleasant experience. I never want to experience that again. I spent about six hours in the ER. the doctor who treated me had been to several third world counties and he knew what I had. They gave me fluids for dehydration and IV antibiotics. That is not how I wanted to end my trip there. 


When I got off the plane and my husband picked me up he was listening to an audio book called "Crazy Love by Francis Chan" when I got in the car I heard him talking about Isaiah 58. Which is the scripture that came up over and over on my trip. And then he spoke about risk takers. In this chapter he says "Haven't we all prayed the following prayer? Lord, we pray for safety as we travel. We ask that no one gets hurt on this trip. Please keep everyone safe until we return, and bring us back safely. In Jesus' name we pray, amen. The exact wording may very a bit, but that is the standard prayer we recite before leaving on mission trips, retreats, vacations, and business trips."

 "We are consumed by safety. Obsessed with it, actually. Now, I'm not saying it is wrong to pray for God's protection, but I am questioning how we've made safety our highest priority.We've elevated safety to the neglect of whatever God's best is, whatever would bring God the most Glory, or whatever would accomplish His purposes in our lives and in the world. 

Would you be will to pray this prayer? God, bring me closer to You during this trip, whatever it takes.....

People who are obsessed with Jesus aren't consumed with their personal safety and comfort above all else. Obsessed people care more about God's kingdom coming to this earth than their own lives being shielded from pain or distress." (Crazy Love by Francis Chan)


When I heard these words, well it made me think. The one thing I did not want to happen was to get sick in a foreign country. But what if this was God's will for me? I know that when I was in the bathroom I was crying out to God to help me. I knew I was really sick and I needed God's help to get me through it."


It was the most wonderful trip for me. Despite the illness at the end. God spoke me in so many ways. 

I am not sure what God had in store for me next as far as going back to the Dominican. This was my fourth trip. But if God calls to go again I will go. 
The Sunday after I came back I went to Mass. The homily that was given by our Priest was on Genesis 12:1-3 

The Call of Abram

 ¹ The Lord had said to Abram, “Leave your native country, your relatives, and your father’s family, and go to the land that I will show you. ² I will make you into a great nation. I will bless you and make you famous, and you will be a blessing to others. ³ I will bless those who bless you and curse those who treat you with contempt. All the families on earth will be blessed through you.”

This is the scripture that God gave me when I went on my second mission trip to the Dominican Republic. The whole homily was on this scripture. I just had a sense that God was speaking to me here. He was was just letting me know that it is Him calling me there. It was just fitting for this to be the scripture on the Sunday after I get back. 

There is more I experienced in the Dominican. I have more stories about the medical clinic's we did. But I will write another post about them soon. 

My Devotion

All my world
All I've lost
The wrecks I've made here
The lives it cost
Your hand restores
Your works make whole
With all my soul
I thank You
I owe You
All my...

Devotion

All that I have to give

Here's my devotion
You're all that it means to live

All my past
My tainted main
You stole its legacy
Of pride and shame
You're all I love
You're all I fear
I'm drawing near
To face You
To know You
To show You...

Devotion
All that I have to give
Here's my devotion
You're all that it means to live

You found me
In a shallow grave
You tracked me out from beneath it all
You healed me
Saved me
In the nick of time
Your perfect time
You found me (found me)
In a shallow grave (in a shallow grave)
You called me out from beneath it all
You touched me (touched me)
Saved me (saved me)
In the nick of time
In Your perfect time

I devote all I have to You
I devote all that You've made new
All You restored that day You bled
All that You brought back from the dead
All...

Devotion (You're all...)
You're all that I have to give
You're all that it means to live
Here's my devotion, my devotion
All that it means to live (You're all that means to live)

My Lord
My devotion

God's Love.....

Unless you have received it yourself you cannot give love away. Let God love you. Receive His love for you. Bathe in it. Meditate on it. Let it strengthen you. Then give it away. Joyce Meyer

My Arkansas Trip home

I just got back from visiting family in Arkansas where I grew up. I got to spend eight days there. It was a really good trip home. And we also spent a couple of days in a bed and breakfast just to get away for ourselves. It was a wonderful B&B. It was a house  that was built in 1890. Our room was awesome with a huge jacuzzi tub. Which I spent a lot of time in. There was a awesome front porch swing and a very loving little black cat at the Inn. The B&B was in Hot Springs, AR near were some of my family lives so it was very convenient for us to stay there and visit family at the same time. During our time in Hot Springs we just kinda hung out. We ate home cooked food at a local restaurant. Shopped a little in Historic downtown in the little quaint shops there. And spent a lot of time on the front porch swing with the cat at the Inn. We also spent some time shopping at some local rock shops. I was trying to find some unusual rocks for a project I want to start working on. And I wanted some stones from where I grew up at. This project I want to start is about making crosses while you pray. So I found several beads, stones and rock from where I grew up to start my cross. The book for this is call Making Crosses it was a book my friend gave me for my birthday a few weeks ago. 

The other time spent in AR was with my sister and my niece's and nephews. I also enjoyed getting to go to church with my sister, my sister's mother-in-law and my niece's. Also visiting my Mom and some of my husbands family. It was so nice to see them all. I enjoyed be able to spend time with my sister and enjoy home cooked meals while I was home. These are a few pictures from my trip.

                                                                 This is the B&B we stayed at

                                                                   The cat at the B&B

                       Me swimming in the Caddo River with my cousin. I grew up swimming in this river.

 My Aunt and Uncle's house. This were I grew up. My grandparents lived her before my Uncle bought it after they passed away. And they built a new house there. It is a good place to get a way. 

                                                                The Local Rock shop

                                                 Me and my family having dinner at my sister's

          Family reunion with my husbands family

                                                         My sister and my two niece's

I have been reading Psalm 5:3 a lot lately. This is a hard one for me. To rise early in the morning to pray and wait expectantly for God to answer. For one thing I am not much of a morning person. Most of the time it is praying in the evening and waiting for God to answer for me. I do try to get up in the morning but it is hard. I have never been a morning person. When I do manage to get up early before dawn and pray I like the quietness and I like hearing the birds singing. I do find that there is something special about praying early in the morning. But I find that I do most of my praying at night. I am a night owl. I love to pray at night. I of course pray through out the day also. They may just short little prayers to God when I am driving or doing whatever. 

When do you pray the most? Do you rise early to pray? 

                                                                    Listen to my cry for help,
                                                                      my King and my God,
                                                                          for to you I pray.

                                                   In the morning, O LORD, you hear my voice;
                                                    in the morning I lay my requests before you
                                                                      and wait in expectation.

                                                                               Psalm 5:2-3

Holy, Holy, Holy!

Holy, holy, holy! Lord God Almighty!

Early in the morning our song shall rise to Thee;

Holy, holy, holy, merciful and mighty!

God in three Persons, blessed Trinity!

Holy, holy, holy! All the saints adore Thee,

Casting down their golden crowns around the glassy sea;

Cherubim and seraphim falling down before Thee,

Who was, and is, and evermore shall be.

Holy, holy, holy! Though the darkness hide Thee,

Though the eye of sinful man Thy glory may not see;

Only Thou art holy; there is none beside Thee,

Perfect in pow’r, in love, and purity.

Holy, holy, holy! Lord God Almighty!

All Thy works shall praise Thy Name, in earth, and sky, and sea;

Holy, holy, holy; merciful and mighty!

God in three Persons, blessed Trinity!

Lyrics by Reginald Heber

The Apostles Creed in Song

I have never heard the Apostle's creed like this before. This was very powerful to me. I am so glad that I am Catholic now. I just love the depth of the Catholic Faith. I thank God that He led me this way. There is such beauty with the Catholic Church. I love just love it. I felt like I was in heaven listening to this video! And John Micheal Talbot is very anointed!

Confirmed Catholic

Well it has been so busy the past month. I have had so many things going on. I am now Catholic. I was Confirmed at Easter Vigil. It had been the day I had been waiting for. 

The week before I had a chance to go to San Antonio with my husband. He had some training there with his company. So I decided to go with him and not attend the Holy Thursday services with my parish.  I thought I could attend one in San Antonio. Another couple went with us also. So my friend and I went to some of the Catholic churches there. We went to the Shrine of St. Theresa the Little Flower. That was special because she was my Saint name. The shrine was beautiful. I really enjoyed being there.

On Wednesday my friend took me to Incarnate Word University Chapel. We just wanted to go inside and look around it and pray. Well it was closed. So my friend decided to go down some steps and push the intercom button. A Nun answered and said that she would be right down. She opened the door and we asked her if we could see the Chapel. She said yes she could give us a tour. I had no idea what to expect. When I seen the chapel it was beautiful. It was one of the most beautiful chapel's I had ever seen. The Nun gave us an hour long tour of the chapel.  Then I told her that I was being confirmed on Saturday. Then she said well I am the person who gets to pick who carries the gifts to the priest for Holy Thursday. And then she said "would you like to do that?" I said yes I would. So I figured that this is where God wanted me to spend Holy Thursday. I had planned on going back to the Shrine of St. Theresa for Holy Thursday. So I ended going here instead. I just felt God was working things out for me. So when Thursday night came I had to go to the service by myself because my friend was unable to go. When I got there the same Nun said"I would like you to do something else. I would like you to also carry the oil for the catechums" I said yes I would like to do that. So at the beginning of the service I got to carry the oil to the front of the church.  

Then got to participate in the feet washing ceremony. Which I gave up at my parish to go on this trip. Usually they only pick twelve people to have their feet washed. But here at this church they let anyone come up and participate. After the service was over they had adoration. Only a few us stayed. So during adoration a young man and women began to sing the Divine Mercy. It was the most beautiful singing of the Divine Mercy I had ever heard. I felt as though I was in heaven. I was so overwhelmed with emotion. I just worshiped the Lord for about two hours. I could feel the presence of the Lord there. I did not get home until eleven  that night. It was a wonderful night for me. It was really special.

So on Friday we returned home. I had to go and do my first confession. Then the next day I was confirmed into the Catholic Church. We had an all day retreat and then Easter Vigil that night. There was about fifty of us entering the Catholic Church. I had been waiting for this moment. And when I received the Eucharist I heard the voice of the Lord say "this is my solemn promise to you" and at that moment it all became very real to me. It was just a beautiful night. And afterwords we had a wonderful reception.

So now I am living a new normal with my faith. I have been going to daily mass. I can't hardly stay away. Being Protestant all my life this is something new for me. But I thank God for leading me this way. And I thank Him that I now know the fullness of truth. The fullness of His Glory. It has been a long journey to get here. But God worked through all my obstacles. At the beginning of this journey to the Catholic Church God just told me not to be afraid. To go forward. To make a decision and He would take care of the rest. And He did.

Do you want to be well?

Today I was reading the daily Mass readings. And the meditation of the day was on "Do you want to be well?" by Brother Lawrence of the Resurrection. I really liked this reading. And often wonder why some people suffer more than others. Like my Dad who in 12 years had two triple bypasses and multiple stents placed in his heart, then a battle with skin cancer and had to have Chemotherapy. And then the last two years of his life suffered greatly with Pulmonary Fibrosis. And died at the age of 65 this past May.  Of course I prayed and prayed for my Dad to be healed. He was healed. But not the way I had prayed for. I was praying for physical healing for him on earth. We don't always understand suffering here on earth or why certain people are not healed in the way we think they ought to be. I guess I will only know why my Dad had to suffer so much when I get to heaven myself.

And I have experienced my suffering in my own life. And if I would not have suffered then things I have I don't think I would be as close to God as I am now. The suffering and trials I have been through is what has brought me closer to God. All though they have been very painful I don't think I would change anything I have been through.

I liked what Brother Lawrence had to say about suffering and trials.

Do you want to be well?

I will not ask God to deliver you from your trials, but I will ask him earnestly to give you the patience and strength needed to suffer as long as he desires. Find consolation in him who keeps you fixed to the cross; he will release you when he judges it appropriate. Happy are they who suffer with him. Get used to suffering, and ask him for the strength to suffer as he wants, and for as long as he judges necessary. The worldly do not understand these truths, and I am not surprised; the reason is that they suffer as citizens of this world and not as Christians. They consider illnesses as natural afflictions and not as graces from God, and therefore they find in them only what is difficult and harsh for our nature. But those who regard them as coming from the hand of God, as signs of his mercy and the means he uses for their salvation, ordinarily find great sweetness and perceptible consolations in them.

I wish you were convinced that God is often closer to us in times of sickness and suffering than when we enjoy perfect health. Seek no other doctor but him. I think he wants to cure you by himself. Place all your trust in him, and you will soon experience the benefits we resist when we trust more in medical remedies than in God.

Whatever remedies you may use, they will only work to the extent that he will permit. When suffering comes from God, he alone can cure it, and he often leaves us with physical illness in order to cure our spiritual illness. Find consolation in the sovereign doctor of body and soul. 

Brother Lawrence of the Resurrection

  "Where as ye know not what shall be on the morrow. For what is your life? It   is even a vapor, that appeareth for a little time, and then vanisheth away." James 4:14

Last Wednesday I wrote about how I was missing my Dad. Well on Friday I received two devotionals about losing a loved one. One of the devotionals was about how death is not a period it is only a comma. I liked that. And the other devotional was about a gentleman who had lost his Father. And the scripture he used in the devotional was James 4:14. That was the scripture my Dad would always say.

My Dad suffered greatly the last two years of his life with Pulmonary Fibrosis. He lived on oxygen the last two years of his life. I watched him struggle for every breath. It was hard to watch him struggle for every breath. And he never really complained the whole time he was sick. He would just say we are only a vapor here. Here today gone tomorrow. So that is the scripture we put on his tombstone. I just felt God was talking to me in the two devotionals. Letting me know that my Dad is with Him. And this weekend I went to an awesome retreat. And I felt God speaking to me again about my Dad. And the words I heard this weekend helped. God is so good. He knows our every need. Even when you are missing your loved one He will speak words of encouragement to you. And it says in Matthew 5:4 "Blessed are those who mourn for they will be comforted."  And God has done some comforting for me the this weekend.

Thanks for the kind comments on my last post.

Kitty Kat Wake Up

I felt like I needed a laugh today. It's been a long week for me. Maybe you have had a long week too and just need to laugh for a minute. Laughter is good medicine. I love this video. I have three cats. And sometimes I feel like this guy in the video!

Rite of Sending at the Cathedral

Today was the rite of sending for Catechumens and Candidates for RCIA. It was a beautiful day. And a beautiful ceremony for everyone. There was Catechumens and Candidates from all over the diocese there. It was a packed house today. The singing was just beautiful.  Then they called my name to go up the he bishop. My husband had to push me up there in the wheel chair so he got to go with me up to the bishop. My sponsor was also with me walking beside me with her hand on my left shoulder.  I got to met and  hug the bishop. Then he blessed me and prayed for healing for my foot. I was't expecting him to pray for  the healing of my foot. Then there was a time of adoration. It was a beautiful moment. Afterwards there was a reception for us. I was able to take a picture with the bishop. Then we ate and had good fellowship with some friends. It was just a great service.

How God Heals

Sirach 38:1-14
Sickness and Medicine
1 Give doctors the honor they deserve, for the Lord gave them their work to do.
2 Their skill came from the Most High, and kings reward them for it.
3 Their knowledge gives them a position of importance, and powerful people hold them in high regard.
4 The Lord created medicines from the earth, and a sensible person will not hesitate to use them.
5 Didn't a tree once make bitter water fit to drink, so that the Lord's power might be known?
6 He gave medical knowledge to human beings, so that we would praise him for the miracles he performs.
7-8 The druggist mixes these medicines, and the doctor will use them to cure diseases and ease pain. There is no end to the activities of the Lord, who gives health to the people of the world.
9 My child, when you get sick, don't ignore it. Pray to the Lord, and he will make you well.
10 Confess all your sins and determine that in the future you will live a righteous life.
11 Offer incense and a grain offering, as fine as you can afford.
12 Then call the doctor for the Lord created him and keep him at your side; you need him.
13 There are times when you have to depend on his skill.
14 The doctor's prayer is that the Lord will make him able to ease his patient's pain and make them well again.

Tell it all to God

Last night I was so frustrated. I was frustrated with everything. With my foot and everyone around me. So I got my journal out and I just poured my heart out to God about everything. I asked Him to forgive me for complaining to Him but I needed to get it out. And then this morning I received this devotional in my email about "Tell it all to God." And this was the scripture in the devotional "Trust in Him at all times, you people; pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us. —Psalm 62:8." So I know now that God does want us to pour our hearts out to Him. It has just been really frustrating with my foot the way it is. Not being able to do things on my own. And other things in my life right now. Sometimes life is just plain frustrating! And after I had written in my journal I put my mp3 player on and listened to Matt Redman's song Facedown. And for about an hour I listened to Matt Redman and worshiped God. Quietly. I just wanted things to be quiet. I have just felt a lot of noise around me recently. I wanted some peace and quiet. And the only way it seemed I could get that was to put my mp3 player on and tune out the world. And just worship God. And I felt so much better after that. At that moment when I started to worship I could feel His presence. It is quite wonderful when you are in His presence. And I felt so much peace at that moment. This also reminded me of Isaiah 26:3" You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you."
So I don't think I started Lent out right. But I felt like God was telling me just turn everything over to Him. And it seemed like God did not mind me telling him all my frustrations. I think He wants us to. When I got the devotional it just spoke volumes to me. That God really does care about our problems and frustrations and He wants us to tell Him about them. He wants to be kind to us and comfort us in our lives that are so full of stress. But I think I am going to have to work on the list I posted below for Lent.   Here is the link to the devotional it you would like to read it. www.rbc.org/devotionals/our-daily-bread/2010/02/18/devotion.aspx

Lent

I attend a women's bible study on Tuesday's night's. And last night they had a list out for things to give up for Lent. I thought it was a pretty good list. And I thought I would share it.

1. Give up bitterness; turn to forgiveness
2. Give up hatred; return good for evil
3. Give up negativism; be positive
4. Give up complaining; be grateful
5. Give up pessimism; be an optimist
6. Give up harsh judgements; think kindly thoughts
7. Give up discouragement; be full of Hope
8. Give up anger; be more patient
9. Give up pettiness; be more easy going
10. Give up gloom; enjoy the beauty around you
11. Give up jealousy; pray for trust
12. Give up gossiping; control your thoughts and words
13. Give up sin; turn to virtue

Night before last I was praying. I was writing my prayer's down in my prayer journal. Lately I have been having trouble finding words to praise God with. In my prayer journal it has tabs for praise, admit and confessing sins, your requests, thanksgiving, listening, messages, old and new testament scriptures that speak to you and a place for proverbs. It is a great prayer book. It keeps me on track.  Anyway, so the last few day I have been going to the Psalms for words to praise God with. And I try to find the words that really describe how I am feeling at the time. I have a copy of The Message Bible. I love how the message puts the scriptures. So night before last night my eyes fell upon Psalm 119:65-80.

65-72 Be good to your servant, God;
be as good as your Word.
Train me in good common sense;
I'm thoroughly committed to living your way.
Before I learned to answer you, I wandered all over the place,
but now I'm in step with your Word.
You are good, and the source of good;
train me in your goodness.
The godless spread lies about me,
but I focus my attention on what you are saying;
They're bland as a bucket of lard,
while I dance to the tune of your revelation.
My troubles turned out all for the best—
they forced me to learn from your textbook.
Truth from your mouth means more to me
than striking it rich in a gold mine.
73-80 With your very own hands you formed me;

now breathe your wisdom over me so I can understand you.

When they see me waiting, expecting your Word,

those who fear you will take heart and be glad.

I can see now, God, that your decisions are right;

your testing has taught me what's true and right.

Oh, love me—and right now!—hold me tight!

just the way you promised.
Now comfort me so I can live, really live;
your revelation is the tune I dance to.
Let the fast-talking tricksters be exposed as frauds;
they tried to sell me a bill of goods,
but I kept my mind fixed on your counsel.
Let those who fear you turn to me
for evidence of your wise guidance.
And let me live whole and holy, soul and body,
so I can always walk with my head held high.

What it said really spoke to me. And yesterday I was reading my Magnificat. When I came to the reading in Psalms it was the same Psalm I had prayed the night before. In the Magnificat the reading was Psalm 119:67,68,71,72,75,76.

67 Before I was afflicted I went astray, but now I hold to your promise.
68 You are good and bountiful; teach me your statutes.
71 It is good for me that I have been afflicted, that I may learn your statutes.
72 The law of your mouth is to me more precious than thousands of gold and silver pieces.
75 I know, O Lord, that your ordinances are just, and in your faithfulness you have afflicted me.
76 Let your kindness comfort me according to your promise to you servants.

I had to read it again to make sure I was reading this correctly. I could not believe I was reading the same thing I had prayed the night before. God is so good. What I thought was my own thoughts was actually the Holy Spirit guiding me to this scripture. God knew that this would be my devotional reading the next day. And He wanted to speak somthing to me. It spoke volumes to me. It spoke to me because I have been though so much with my back injury in 2005, my recent heart procedure, my foot surgery, and I have dealt with migraines for about 12 years. All these afflictions have caused me to seek God. After the back injury is when I really started seeking after God. Had it not been for all these afflictions I am not sure I would have sought after God the way I have the past five years. So I know God is trying to tell me something with these scriptures. God simply amazes me. And I love Him so much. He amazes me with how much He loves me. And how much He desires a relationship with me. God knows our hearts and He knows what we pray. He knows everything about us. He knows us better than we know ourselves.